21 Years Later: The Night My Life Forever Changed: 4 The Better

For the first time since that night, 7/22/01, which was the 21st and then the accident happened sometime after midnight, I returned to my accident scene to chat with Spectrum News! It was so special to bring Caiden there and to show how from struggle comes progress! It felt good to be there, felt true

How a Picture Can Spark Immense Emotion

I remember this day, the day that I took this cheerleading picture. What I did not know was that it would be my last season cheerleading. I remember once we received the pics thinking how it was such a nice picture. I remember nice comments on the picture from other people in HS. I remember

My Unhealthy, Teenager Need, To Have a Boyfriend

I have been laying in bed after watching the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and my mind will not stop racing. The show has all sorts of thoughts going through my head because the ability to be a strong woman, on your own, succeeding is a main theme in the series. The last episode I watched right

Life, Devastating, Amazing, They Go Hand-in-Hand

Sometimes life stops and then it starts again it can be devastating it can seem like it will never get better it can seem like you are alone and that no one can understand it can seem like you exist in life on the outside looking in that one split second, that one moment that

Disturbing Journal Writings From My Abusive High School Relationship

Life has a weird way of bringing memories back into your mind. I am on a team call and needed paper. I grabbed a notebook from middle school and high school that I used to journal in everyday.   It shows me how insecure I was, how I had no confidence in myself, and how

Reflections on Pain, Loss, Sadness, and Emptiness Throughout My Journey

I have been struggling the past couple weeks, I have gained some weight and my toddler has been having some meltdowns where I have not kept my cool, I’m not sure what is going on but it was time to start writing it out. Here is goes, a letter to myself and everyone going through

My Trauma Counseling Journey Continues

The theme of my trauma counseling this month is learning how to comfortably have conversations with others in person and just being. Learning that it is safe to do this and that I do not have to worry about someone lashing out and loosing control of their rage. These are the things that linger within

Your Mind Controls Your Maximum Potential! Do not let your body control your progress!!

I’ve been slacking and not pushing myself, I got comfortable! It is Ok to get comfortable but whatever you do don’t stay too long in your comfort zone. Growth comes from outside of your comfort zone! ​ ​ Magic happens when you step outside of your comfort zone!! I’m working for the magic!! And of course

Guest Speaking At The Henrietta, Ny Fireman’s 2017 Inspection Banquet-video

My first time sharing my story focused on the time spent trapped in the car! 3.5 hours of it! I spent 2.5 years trapped in a physically, emotionally, and sexually abusive relationship which ended in the night I shared about in the video. From 14-16, I had just turned 17 before the accident, which was

Learning To Be A Human Being Instead Of A Human Doing..Trauma Counseling Progress

🤷‍♀️Today in trauma counseling we talked about the difference between being a human being and a human doing. I am really great at the doing but being, just being, is hard for me. 😤😢If I rest I have to feel emotions and for many years I was able to numb my emotions so this makes